Thursday, May 28, 2009

What was I thinking?

Last summer my sister got married.

At this aforementioned wedding I had to wear a strapless dress.


Not good.


However, when looking for bridesmaid dresses there are not many other choices aside from strapless.

A cousin of mine, after enjoying the open bar at the reception, took me aside and told me that although I was a "cute girl" (his words, not mine), that when it came to losing weight, a person had to do it for themselves. No one else.

That is fine and all.....IF WE HAD BEEN TALKING ABOUT LOSING WEIGHT!

This just came up randomly, out of the blue, with no mention on my part about diet, exercise, or my incessant need to lose weight. NOTHING.

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Needless to say, after that I gained 7 lbs in less than four months. I hit my highest weight ever, not including my pregnancies.

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Earlier this year I got back on track and started doing tae-bo at home and trying to be more conscience of what I ate. Being an emotional eater, I rarely ate because I was actually hungry.

This produced results of me losing 10 lbs in about a month and a half.

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In March we had a family get together at my house and this same cousin commented that he thought that I had lost weight. "About ten pounds if I were to guess...."

And he was right.

And do you know what is sad funny?

I became depressed that someone was apparently watching me and my weight so closely that I promptly stopped what I was doing and gained 5 lbs back.

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Crazy, I know.


Obviously, this isn't his fault and I apparently have some hurdles I need to get over.

That being said, Tuesday I popped Jillian Michaels "30 day shred" in the DVD player, grabbed some hand weights and thought to myself, "I can do anything for 20 minutes".

I think it would be safe to say something here about famous last words.....


Mr. B and Miss L joined along with me, grabbing their remote controls weights. Mr. B tapped out fairly quickly.

Geesh....three year olds these days....

Miss L lasted a bit longer, although she kept commenting about it being hard and Jillian being bossy.

I would have agreed but it would have required more energy to actually speak, so I chose to suffer in silence.

Who knew jumping jacks could do a person in?

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Yesterday I woke up and my legs were a tad bit sore. I was okay with this and thought, "not too bad".

Since I had just paid for a membership to our community fitness center, I decided that on days that I worked, I would stop at the center on the way home, whip out a workout and go on my way.

I would do "the shred" on my off days.

So, yesterday afternoon I got off work and went to the fitness center. I used the elliptical machine for 20 minutes, hopped on a stationary bike for a little over ten minutes and realized that it was time to go pick up my children. (Enrollment had taken a little longer...usually I will have an hour)

I felt pumped that I had taken this step and went home and mowed my yard.

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Folks, today I can barely walk.

In fact, I am not sure that you can call what I am doing walking. It looks more like shuffling so as to avoid any bends at the knees which would result in my thigh muscles contracting which would result in my doubling over in pain....except that my abs hurt too much to double over.

Intent to stick with the plan, I will show up at the center today and try to get through another workout.

This also means that tomorrow I am supposed to do "the shred".

Do you think Jillian has a modified version of "the shred" that you can do lying down?

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I told you so!!!

~Sharn Jean

Mama Goose said...

Ooooh. Getting back in to a routine is a hard one. I vow never to over do it because that's what always makes me quit. Baby steps will take you where you want to be.

~*Michelle*~ said...

Oh I know I'll be popping over in your world more often.....I love your sense of humor!

OK, so I wrote about how that 30 Day Shred works.....she works you so hard that you cannot even lift your arms to reach for the chips in the cupboard!

You can totally do this! I believe in you.....it just is tough getting into a routine.

Chad said...

Hey! I was just directed to your blog by a post you made on thebigmamablog. I am right there with you on the weight gain....I just don't have quite as direct of cousin to point it out.

The Sour Kraut said...

I was squatting down yesterday attaching cabinet hardware. Today I am limping in pain. How can I be that out of shape as to limp after crouching for awhile? I keep telling myself that "this is the week I'm going to get exercising". You know, that's the reason we bought Scout, so I could have a dog to go with. She'll be three this summer. You know it. Haven't started yet.

I'm beginning to realize I may be an emotional eater too. I always think to myself, "Go ahead, you deserve it. You'll just start walking this week...." Is that emotional eating?? Pity for myself?

Good luck - don't overdo it.

Oh, and by the way, I have never thought you looked like you needed to lose weight in any photos I've ever seen of you.