That is how I feel.
When I started this blog a little over a year ago, it was at the insistence of a couple of friends.
A way to keep in contact and keep laughing, throughout the work day.
A year later one of the friends is no longer blogging and the other friend only blogs....occasionally.
With or without them I have very few readers, yet that is OK.
This whole blog world is new to me, yet very intriguing. These blogs allow you to peek into someones life and view what is going on in their world. Sometimes it is very superficial and fun, and other times, it is much more deep and intimate, leaving you feeling like you very much know this person......this person you very much DON'T know.
I read stories of people investing so much of their time and energy striving to make the world better and I am inspired..... yet I find myself at a loss of what to do, and armed with an arsenal of excuses of why I can't do anything.
I want to be the person who gives selflessly, but at the end of the day I feel like I have nothing left to give. Am I bad? Rationally I know that everyone is born having something of value to offer. I guess I need to figure out what that is.
Sure I donate money every now and then. Not enough to make a dent, but some. Yet this too feels inadequate. I feel called to do more. But I sit here not knowing what.
Soon, hopefully, very soon, I will get this ball in motion.